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Well, I simply don't have any free time at all anymore. I am up at 7am and don't stop until I go to bed around 10. I am physically exhausted. In the past three days, I have collapsed in tears twice. I don't think I have EVER felt this alone.

Ken's parents are killing me, and possibly him too. I got a call from his father this morning saying he had a bone to pick with me. He said he didn't want his wife cleaning up dog shit from my back yard anymore. She comes over every few days and cleans up the dog "leavings" from our backyard, and I BEG her not to. I tell her to just leave it there, and not to worry about it, but she insists on cleaning it up. Then apparently she goes home and tells Bill that she "has" to do it.

Ken has been out of rehab for three weeks now, and I have not been able to get a speech therapist or an occupational therapist to come by the house. I have gone through two agencies now, and have had to fire both of them because they aren't getting therapists to visit Ken. I think I spend almost 4 hours on the phone yesterday. My cell phone battery died, and I had to go to the car and use it so I could charge it. Helen says I am not trying hard enough. I'm not getting any work done at all. And I am so tired, all the time. I want to be selfish. I want just one god damn thing to be about me. I hate me right now.

Saturday, December 5th, 9:51pm

Hi all! Sorry for the lack up updates!

We are getting settled into the house nicely.

And Ken is doing amazingly well! He is walking now, and hasn't used the wheelchair in almost three days now. We had a wonderfuly busy day today. We went to hair cuttery and got hour hair did, then we went to Target and got a gift for a "Toys for Tots" party that our friend Steve and Lisa have each year, and then we went to their house for the party! We didn't stay long, only about 5 or 10 minutes, and it was so nice to see them again. Then we went back to Target for some Christmas cookies and came home and enjoyed them in front of the TV.

In other news, it snowed today. And then snowed some more, and then snowed and snowed and snowed. There is quite a bit on the ground now, and it looks great.

Work is going well. Ken has an in-home aid that stays with him during the day while I am work, and she is really helping out a lot. It is Ken's hard work, and her assistance that has him up and walking as much as he is now.

In the house, I have replaced the faucets in two of the bathrooms, fixed two of the toilets, replaced the kitchen faucet, replaced two of the light fixtures in the hall, and the light fixture in the front foyer and the front porch light, too. I have a bit more to do, but I'm almost done!

Thanks for the well wishes and thoughts!

Wednesday, December 2nd, 9:30am

Well, the old house is finally on the market!

http://mrislistings.mris.com/Matrix/Public/Portal.aspx?ID=64101425-874312624-56

The pictures are wonderful! This should sell quickly!

http://mrislistings.mris.com/Matrix/Public/PhotoPopup.aspx?L=1&TID=1&key=90139563513&mtid=1&n=23&View=G&i=0